I will not shed a tear for Nancy Reagan!
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Posted:Mar 10, 2016 1:34 pm
Last Updated:Mar 28, 2016 4:10 am 64773 Views
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To start, everyone is entitled to their own personal feelings about things. Sometimes what we are told on the media is NOT accurate about people of celebrity or political status and there may be a different and real story than what the media gives us.
Years ago in Sacramento California during the Ronald Reagan governorship I worked in downtown Sacramento. I managed a restaurant that catered to the capital crowd, which was state legislators (state senators and assemblymen, which were often trying to lay their secretaries or a female staff member), state clerical staff and of course lobbyist. There were also the people from the governors’ office and the governor Ronald Reagan himself and also much of the time with the governor was Nancy.
I did not see Nancy Reagan as the wonderful person the media has made her out to be. The governor and she on occasion were patrons at the upscale restaurant I managed in downtown right across the street from Capital Park and The State Capital Building. We were open for lunch and dinner both. We would see Ronald and Nancy occasionally on either shift. Usually Nancy was at dinner.
I don’t like to say anything derogatory about someone that has passed on but from what I saw of Nancy Reagan she brought a whole new meaning and definition to the word ‘SNOB’. She was always demeaning to the wait staff and it was obvious that she looked down on people who actually had to work for a living.
There was an evening right before we reopened for dinner that my 5 servers, 4 females and 1 male, were up at the podium (Captain’s desk) looking at the reservation book and there seem to be some serious discussion going on. I approached them to see what they were talking about because they all seemed agitated. I asked them what the problem was and they had seen the reservation for the Reagan’s on the book and each one of them boldly stated that they did not want to wait on them, which really put me in a predicament. Here I had the governor of the state of California and his wife coming in for dinner and I could not get one of my servers to wait on them. So anyway I got through that.
From my experiences dealing with Nancy she would belittle the wait staff to the point that they were very agitated with her. She had that snobbish air with me also like she thought she was born royalty. My top server/waitress lost it one night and started going off on Nancy while standing beside her table and I had to intervene. I had to have another waitress finish with them that night. The first waitress who was normally calm and very professional (this was an upscale fine dining establishment) who was someone I received numerous compliments on, in anger told me ‘she wanted to scratch that bitches eyes out’ referring to Nancy. Nancy demanded that I fire the server but that never did happen, she was too good at her job and would have been very hard to replace.
We had other guests coming into our restaurant also and they did not deserve a server that was upset by another guest that was rude. I had actually witnessed Nancy’s rude treatment of the staff. One night I overheard her telling a female server something like, “I am an important person and you are just a common waitress, so shoo (making a dismissing gesture with her hand at the server), we will summon you if we need you.” It was as if Nancy thought she was the Queen of England or something. The server was simply doing her job and checking on the Reagan’s to see if they needed anything.
The tables and booths in our dining room had dividers that gave the guests privacy and one could not see who was around them. There were times that guests that did not know that the governor and his wife were in the restaurant and in a booth close by them, asked me who the rude woman was in the booth that was giving the wait staff such a hard time.
There were times that I myself came under fire from guests asking me why I allowed such treatment of my staff. So Nancy’s behavior also disrupted other guests from enjoying their meal. I could not tell the guests that the rude person was the governor’s wife.
I never had a problem with the governor himself though. I remember serving him a drink a couple of times when the server was busy and he would appear as he had a slight glow on, with flushed cheeks and a slight grin. I remember serving and pouring him a Heineken in a glass once and he would also have a glass of wine with his meal. He was usually kind of quiet.
So that is my own personal experiences with Nancy Reagan and those are facts. The Capital Building was surrounded by restaurants on all sides and I had talked to other restaurant managers in the area and was told that they had the same experiences and problems with Nancy. I tolerated her for several years.
Nancy refused to live in the Governor’s Mansion and had a new mansion built with taxpayer’s money and she also doubled the domestic staff. The state of California was already having financial issues at that time.
Governor Pat Brown had a chauffeured limo at his disposal but sometimes used to drive his own vehicle to work and sometimes even walk from what I was told and he was very well liked, especially downtown Sacramento. Ronald Reagan came into office and had a 5 car (black limos) procession from the new mansion on down J Street on his way to work every morning. I saw this for myself and also saw traffic being held up as if it were a funeral procession. Other governors did not do this.
Things that I do not know for a fact are negative things I heard about Nancy Reagan but having previous experiences with her I would not doubt.
I had heard on TV and also read a report concerning the ‘Just Say No!’ that Nancy would only come into the offices for a couple of hours every week or so and then leave without really doing anything, just more or less making an appearance. When she was there, she was trying to tell other experienced office staff how to do their jobs. Also that it was not her that came up with ‘Just Say No’ and that it was something she overheard in a office and she took credit for it. Well, for one I have talked to many people about this and they say that one can’t always just say no. Nancy did not really understand that it is not that easy in urban high schools. Workers for the ‘Just Say No’ program reported that Nancy just grabbed credit for work that others done.
Another item I heard but I do not know this for a fact, was from a man I knew that was an LAPD detective that claims he once arrested and booked Nancy in Beverly Hills for years ago and she used a different name then.
My personal experiences and not because of things I heard, are why I will not shed a tear for Nancy Reagan.
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Julie's Boobs 12
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Posted:Feb 22, 2016 11:14 am
Last Updated:Apr 15, 2016 4:28 pm 70817 Views
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I have regular manual breast exams done by my doctor to check for lumps or masses that could be cancerous. My doctor has told me that I can still get breast cancer just like any other woman even though I am a transwoman.
My breasts developed and grew due to gynecomastia from a hormonal imbalance. As my testosterone levels were diminishing due to my age, other things I was doing was escalating my estrogen and other female hormones. It was right after starting to smoke marijuana again after years of abstinence because of drug testing in the work place that I noticed my boobs starting to develop and grow. My breasts are natural growth without any augmentation, so far. I have already written about that so I will not go into it again but I may consider augmentation in the future.
What this segment of ‘Julie’s Boobs’ is about is walking to help breast cancer. Husband (I call my husband as Husband as if it were his name) and I plan on participating in two AVON 39 walk-a-thons on the west coast. There are 5 others in the nation are; Houston, Washington D.C., Chicago, Boston and New York but the ones we will participate in are in San Francisco, July 23/24 for 39.3 miles and includes walking across the Golden Gate Bridge and also Santa Barbara, CA, September 10/11 for 39 miles.
I will be wearing a pink women’s T-shirt or tank top that I will purchase at the events as part of my clothing and I will not be wearing a bra underneath. My boobs are still firm and stand up for a woman my age and snug T-shirts or tank tops do display them very well and kind of hug them and show that I am a woman with breasts. Under the right garment my nipples also protrude through the material making impressions. My boobs bounce and jiggle as I walk.
As support Husband will walk with me and will also wear a man’s T-shirt but pink or black with pink letters and will purchase it at the events. The fee for entry is $39.00 each. Husband is very supportive of anything I do to promote my womanhood.
Some of the things he is supportive of are some of the things I do to make me more feminine and womanly that seem silly to others but that I feel make me feel more emotionally, mentally and psychologically as a woman.
Taking my estrogen effects me mentally as well as physically, my body and brain have become more feminine. Husband tells me that I have a woman’s butt and legs and I have developed breasts also as a result of the estrogen and other female hormones. The testosterone blocker that I take (Spironolactone) aka Spirno also helps by blocking the male hormone.
We have entered in the intermediate division because of our conditioning and also age. We are both former military (I was military years ago while in a male mode) and we are in decent shape and exercise regularly. I do not do any exercises to create male muscle mass as I did in the past when I was in male modes but I do exercises now that target my butt such as; squats (deep knee bends), lunges, on all fours on the floor lifting a leg to the side then put it back down and then do the other side and repeat, and also straight up behind me with ankle weights and lying face down on my tummy and lift my legs separately straight up in the air behind me and also do women’s aerobics. I do some women’s pushups to keep my pectoral muscles behind my breasts firm to help hold them up and keep from sagging. Also when I am exercising I do it in the day while Husband is at work and sometimes I put on a CD and dance for about a half hour to disco music and shake my butt a lot. Husband takes me dancing every Saturday night to one of the local nightclubs that is TG friendly, so that is good practice for that and we do what is called ‘dirty dancing’ or some call it twerking because Husband is behind me and I am grinding my butt against his groin as he is grinding into my butt. Sometimes I can feel his erection pressed between my buttocks even through the materials as we dance. I have also stayed active in my martial arts, not learning anything new in the recent years but practicing what I did learn and I was ready to test for my Shodan (1st degree black belt) when I temporarily halted my martial arts due to an injury. I was sparring with a Sandan (3rd degree black belt) when I got a foot injury but was told by my Sensei and several others that felt I would have easily passed the Shodan Kata. That was when I was in a male mode years ago. I quit training in the Dojo after that and just never got back into it after my foot healed. But I am in good shape and have nice boobs for a woman in her 60s.
There seems to have still been a little more growth and fullness in my boobs but I’m still in the same bras that I was the last time I wrote in here. I’m still in B/C cups and my bra sizes are either 38B or 38C, depends on who makes the bra I am wearing. My cleavage bras are my pushup and demi bras and those are my 38C. My full coverage bras are 38B but they fit me snugger and tighter and I’m starting to get some boob overflow slightly spilling over the edge of them. That is how I know I am still growing. But doctors have told me that natural hormone induced boobs pretty much quit growing after about a year. I calculate mine have been growing for about 15 months. Husband and I have been discussing me getting a boob job and having breast augmentation because I desire having a D cup. Husband is all for that and likes the idea of his wife having D cup boobs.
I do not know of how many other transwoman if any will participate in The AVON 39. I will register as a female because I consider myself as a woman now and so does Husband. When I first retired and started once again living full time as a woman I categorized myself as a transwoman but now I have changed that and I consider myself a woman and female and for the most part dropped the trans part. I am legally married now and am a man’s wife. The only thing that keeps me from being 100% female and woman now is I still have my male genitals. But they have greatly shrunk and my penis is small and flaccid and my scrotum also has shrunk considerably.
Depending on the weather I will be wearing women’s shorts or something like yoga pants for the walks. I did buy a pair of pink and white women’s athletic shoes. I will look like a woman in the crotch because the artificial and prosthetic vulva (pussy/cunt) that I glue to me makes an excellent gaff and does make me look like a female down there especially under snug tight fitting clothing. Sometimes with certain articles of clothing it even gives me a bit of ‘camel toe’, so no one will know that I am not a real woman. Wearing the prosthetic cunt even gives me a female gap at the juncture of my thighs. This is something that I wear daily and all the time anyway and Husband has seen me nude many times but has never seen my male genitals. I always change it while he is at work and so some maintenance on the area and let it get some air. The prosthesis is like part of my female body and even has red pubic hair above and around the slit, pussy lips and labia. That is because I am a redhead now and my shoulder length hair is mine.
It is too late in life for me now to have a vagina cut into me and constructed, it would probably tax my body too much now but I still want to have my penis removed and be castrated. My penis does not get erect anymore and will never be used as a penis again and my testicles I do not need and if I have them removed I may not have to take the Spirno as a testosterone blocker. I just need to find a doctor to do it for me and after removal of the unwanted parts, to sew me back up so it looks like a slit and pussy down there. My pubic hair will grow around it to help me look feminine down there. Husband is in favor of me doing that also. I want a ‘beaver’ down there instead of male genetailia.
My hips are still narrow for a woman but I use foam hip pads in place under my clothing and that helps. I have my beautician now that keeps my hair and nails done for me and she knows what I really am but keeps it a secret in her shop. She treats me just like I’m another woman and the female patrons think that I am just another woman. I have not had any problems passing in public as a woman since I retired and started living full time as a woman. I have had years of practice being a woman. My body looks more womanly now than masculine especially if having my vulva glued to me making me appear as a woman. I have worked down the shoulder muscle and my arms are smaller now so now my shoulders and arm are down to about the size of the average woman. The only part of me that I want to keep built up is my butt and my boobs. I have got my stomach flat from doing crunches, leg lifts and lifting my legs and doing bicycles in the air.
Husband and I are happily married and in love with each other and love each other as a man and woman and husband and wife. I love him as a woman would a man and he loves me as a man would a woman. Valentine’s Day 2015 made it 1 year we stared being a couple when we started dating regularly. He moved in with me last September and he has fucked me just about every night since only missing a few nights that we have not fucked. So I still take his dick up my ass just about every night. When we go to bed together at night it is just automatic that we fuck and it is him fucking me like I’m a woman. Of course I am doing my Kegel exercises daily and sometimes several times a day. When I explained what Kegels are to Husband, he kind of smiled when I told him that I do them to keep my pussy tight for my husband. Maybe it’s because I’m married that I still love being fucked as much as I do. Being fucked regularly just makes me feel more female and womanly. Husband does usually make me cum like a woman when he is fucking me and sometimes 2 or 3 times during one fuck but the fuck is not done until he cums inside me. I love having his sperm inside me. That is something else that contributes to me emotionally, mentally and psychologically being a woman. I still do my sissy feminization hypnosis during the days Husband is at work and that seems to help also. Husband calls me ‘Wife’ and ‘Woman’ quite often as his pet names for me. Sometimes he will call me ‘Mrs. Ferris’.
All I can say now is that life is wonderful and I have lived for what I am doing now. Husband considers me a woman. 
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They keep writing but I can't read it!
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Posted:Jan 9, 2016 12:47 pm
Last Updated:Jun 29, 2016 12:51 pm 68520 Views
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Since OP has started blurring the lines on emails I have received 6 from gold members that I cannot read because of the blur. Is this fair to paying members to have a function taken away from them. I refuse to give OP or any of their sisters any more of my money because of bad experiences when trying to cancel.
Now if they are going to start taking functions away from gold members, I for sure won't give them any more of my money.
I do not know what people are writing to me about, it may because of my recent marriage and becoming a man's wife or what? I do not know if people are congratulating me or condemning me
My husband knows I come on here and I have told him what's going on and Husband feels the same way as I do, don't give them or their sisters anymore money if they are going to start taking things away.
How long will it be before they ban standard members?
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Finding Womanhood: Now Legally Married and a Man’s Wife, and Living as a Woman.
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Posted:Dec 26, 2015 4:40 am
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2016 3:27 am 80491 Views
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Although the earliest post I could find on here was 1/1/2007, it has roughly been about 10 years that I have been coming on this website. But before that I did come to this site just to kind of cruise and see what I could find without posting anything. I was looking for men to hook up with that would use me as a woman and fuck me, even though in my ass, but at least fucked like a woman. All my life I have wanted to be a woman sexually for men.
Even though I am a genetic male I always felt like a woman and female. So feeling like a woman I was still classified by society as a gay and homosexual male and that is why I came to his site to find men interested in a woman like me. What I did like was I was among others that had an understanding of people like me. But this post is not about this site but it is about what I am doing now and also in my future.
It seems that TV, TS, TG and men that want to be women is on the rise. I can look on the internet and see that there are many of us ‘girls’ (some spell it ‘gurls’) and ‘women’ pre op and post op both and some that don’t plan on SRS or GRS at all but just living as a woman. Looking back over the years we girls had to stay in the closet most of time because of ridicule, harassment and physical threats and physical violence due to some close minded thinking individuals. With us it’s just the same as gay men that are masculine or feminine that are subject to ‘gay bashing’. But I really don’t consider myself gay anymore but do consider myself as a woman. As I said society classifies me as gay.
I think that estrogen being put into our daily lives in different forms has contributed from being male to female. It is said that PVC pipe that is commonly used now for home and commercial plumbing does secret estrogen into our household drinking water. There are also many other factors contributing to ingesting estrogen into our systems. I myself have done other things to contribute to my own estrogen levels and have contracted gynecomastia, which has resulted in me growing female breasts. I have also taken a testosterone blocker Spironolactone aka ‘Spirno’ to aid me in my quest of becoming a woman and female of the species.
It makes it hard to determine if we were born this way or were made this way in life. I do know from my personal experience that I was being first feminized when I was 6. I do wonder that if I would have come from a normal family and not from divorced parents and not have been made into a feminine little girl by a babysitter, would I have come out being what is considered normal by society and a normal heterosexual male? Who knows, I am what I am now and I live with it. The seeds of femininity were planted at an early age and they grew and flourished, plus due to the lack of male influence in my environment I was mainly raised in female controlled environments and households.
At times during my life I was in denial of my feminine side and tried to become a masculine male but it seemed that my female side was the stronger and no matter how masculine I tried to be, the feminine desires were stronger. I was actually putting on an act of being male when the true me was female. Yes, I was born male with a penis and testicles but inside I felt I was really a girl.
On November 7th of 2015 I was legally married to my husband and the marriage and wedding took place in Las Vegas Nevada. We also spent a 4 day honeymoon there. I was a bride at my wedding and dressed in a white dress and madeup totally as a woman. At the gay orientated wedding chapel they honored my requests and announced and referred to me as a woman and also used my female name of Julie. We were also announced as Mr. & Mrs. Val and Julie Ferris after we were pronounced as husband & wife.
But to be legal we had to obtain our marriage license at the Clark County (Las Vegas) Courthouse and it had to be a same sex marriage cuz of me being a genetic male and I had to show my male IDs and that was the way it was recorded on the marriage license. I do have a fake picture ID (driver’s license) with me as woman but had to use my real one to make our marriage legal.
We paid for the marriage license and I could have paid extra for a legal name change from my male name to my female name and filled out some legal paperwork and see a judge but my bank accounts, credit cards, retirement and bills are all under my male name so to keep things simple I just left them as they were. But years ago I did ad my female name to my credit cards as if I had a spouse and do have cards with my female first name on them. I did assume my husband’s last name of Ferris. So now I am in all respects Mrs. Julie Ferris, proud wife of Val Ferris. I do use both last names in my life now to keep things simple. In everyday life I go by Julie since I now live totally as a woman.
We went to the courthouse with me as a woman but I did not wear a dress but instead wore women’s blue jeans and women’s pink and white athletic shoes. Of course I do want others to see me as a woman but I did not want to create a stir that could bring problems, so I dressed as a woman but kept it casual, toned down and DL. I wore only light makeup and my nails are long now but I did not paint them and left them bare and natural. I now have a woman’s hairstyle (long pageboy) which is my own hair and I no longer use wigs. Underneath my jeans I had on a spandex/elastane butt shaper panty covering my glued on cunt but did not wear a bra. I wore a teal colored pullover women’s T top but still with me having B/C cup breasts it was still very noticeable from the way it hung on me that I do have boobs. The top kind of hugged my boobs showing them off. I did wear a white long sleeve blouse over that but left it open and unbuttoned. I did have a tampon inserted and fully expanded inside me and the little white string hanging from between my butt cheeks. I did that to make me feel more like a woman while we were obtaining our marriage license. There are many things that I do that contribute to making me feel like a woman and that is one of them. I did not carry a purse like I normally do now but did have a fanny pack strapped around my waist that had everything I needed in it including spare tampons, mainly for effect.
We only got brief looks when getting the license because I guess now people are getting used to same sex marriages and we were not the first couple like us to get married in Las Vegas, which has become a popular destination for same sex marriages and honeymoons. I do admit though that I was excited and euphoric while getting our license to get legally married while we did the paperwork and filled out the applications, and me becoming a legally married woman and a man’s wife. The people in the courthouse seemed to know that I would be the wife in the marriage. I wonder how, LOL?
Husband and I have combined our incomes and Nevada is a community property state but I did insist on one pre-nuptial that if we separated or divorced then I maintain control and possession of my property and house and Husband went along with that. We do not plan on divorcing and staying married permanently but then if I pass first then he does inherit my house and property and anything else I own.
Anal intercourse and sodomy laws as they are defined mainly as anal intercourse or oral copulation in Nevada, state that between same sex people is legal as long as it is private and not in pubic OR does not involve or minors. With me looking like the wife in the marriage it would be easy to imagine what my husband would be doing to me in bed at night. Our marriage is just as any normal marriage between husband and wife and I am the wife. He is the dick and I am the pussy.
There are options on how the couples can be wed. One is the option of a civil wedding with a judge presiding over the service at the courthouse or going to a church or wedding chapel as long as they and the officials are sanctioned to perform weddings. So we carried our marriage license with us and gave it the people at the chapel that would take it from there and have it recorded after the marriage service and wedding was done. We already had an arranged time for our wedding for the following day. The next day in our motel room Husband (as I call him now) got showered, shaved and dressed in his tux and went to the chapel to wait for me his bride to arrive. I the bride started getting ready as any woman and bride would. I knew we would be consummating our marriage that night and I wanted to be very clean inside and took a deep enema to get all the yucky stuff out of me and sat on the toilet for awhile to get all of the enema back out of me. I took a shower and shaved my body. I had changed and glued on my prosthetic pussy the day before so I would be good a few more days before having to remove it and re-do it. It had red pubic hair on it so it would match the red hair on my head and I would look like a natural redhead while nude. I still wear a lifelike and realistic prosthetic cunt glued to me all the time to make me look female and like a woman down in my groin. That also contributes to my feelings of femininity and womanliness wearing it, it’s a good thing I can sit on the toilet and pee though it because the adhesive is so strong that I cannot just take it off when I have to tinkle. It is designed so I can pee through it but like a woman sitting on the toilet or squatting.
I sat on a towel covered chair while still nude in front of my portable makeup mirror at the table in the motel room and did my makeup and painted my nails the usual color I paint them, which is the same shade of red as my lipstick. I bought all brand new white foundation garments; white corset/cincher with garter straps, white butt panty with a satin tummy panel and white push up bra to wear under my wedding dress with the only exception were my suntan (brown) stockings and I wore back seamed stockings because I think they are so very sexy and make me feel sexy. My wedding dress was a white satin cocktail type of dress that came a few inches above my knees. My shoes were silver ankle strap sandals with a 4 inch heel. My normal everyday shoes have mostly 3 inch heels and sometimes I wear 2 inch but sometimes on special occasions I wear 4 inch heels. Those can be difficult for me to wear for longer periods of time and hurt my lower back, legs and ankles but this was a special occasion. I had a white chiffon veil to go with my dress and also white satin upper forearm length fingerless gloves that has a string loop to go over my middle fingers to hold the gloves in place over my palms and the backs of my hands and my fingers from the upper knuckle on down were bare and displayed my painted manicured nails. Long 2 ½ inch earrings with faux diamonds hung down from my earlobes.
After I finished my makeup, nails and hair I went back in the bathroom and douched taking 3 more bags of clear water in short half bag douches to rinse out and douched until the water came back out of me clear. I was happy with that because now my pussy was clean inside. It is actually my rectum but I consider it my vagina.
When doing my nails I did my toe nails also because I would be wearing sandals with my toes showing through the darker toe welts of the stockings. I wanted to be a sexy bride and everyone told me I was and that I made a beautiful bride.
For rings Husband and I both decided that we did not need expensive rings and settled for ones around a hundred dollars each. I got for him a simple plain gold plated men’s band because that was all he wanted. He got for me a women’s gold plated band with 3 small faux stones for diamonds and that was good enough for me. It is a wedding ring and that is all I wanted and I’m wearing it today and both of us now wear our rings everyday and all the time. Husband even wears his to work now.
Eleven people went to Vegas to attend our wedding. Most of them stayed at the same motel we were at but left after just a day or so. Three of those were my bridesmaids, other Tgirl sissies that were thrilled to participate in a wedding as a woman and were madeup and dressed to the nines. I did not have a maid of honor because all my girlfriends I like about the same and did not want to show favoritism and have harsh feelings. So when it came time to put Husband’s ring on his finger the bridesmaid at the end it and passed it to the one in the middle and then she passed it to the one next to me and then she passed it to me. All 3 participated that way. The others that attended were a mixture of a couple of more Tgirls that were dolled up and also men with one being Husband’s best man and a couple of GG lesbians that we know and are friends of Husband and me. One was a butch bull dyke who was the Dom and like the male and the other was the feminine one that took the role as a submissive one.
We had one of the least expensive but medium priced weddings which was a romantic church/chapel wedding in the chapel that looked like a church inside. It was like a traditional church wedding. They have different types of weddings there and different price ranges depending on what the couple desires. But they do offer Elvis and celebrity weddings or themed weddings too. Our minister was an ordained minister and sanctioned and licensed to do legal marriages. We had to pay a little extra for the photographer and the limo driver and also tipping was expected for the minister, driver and photographer. But Husband and I have worked in the service, gaming and food & beverage industries in Nevada most of our adult lives so we do tip better than average people do. We both worked positions at times that we depended on tips (or ‘tokes’ as they are called in Nevada) for the major portion of our incomes.
It was getting close to time for the limo to come and pick me up to take me to the chapel. The girls (bridesmaids) would ride with me. They came to my room to see if I needed any help and I was almost ready but did have one girl zip up the back of my dress for me. Before we left I needed a finishing touch to make me feel even more like a woman and went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet to insert a tampon. A tampon is just a hard dry wad of cotton like substance and can be very uncomfortable and even hurt after insertion but I always use a small bulb syringe to inject a little warm water behind it to soften and fully expand it inside me. Then it becomes comfortable and even enjoyable to have in my vagina and I am aware that it is inside me and that makes me feel so much more womanly and feminine. I was thinking to myself that Husband’s dick would soon be inside me in place of the tampon.
We arrived at the chapel and I was taken to a room. I had not seen Husband yet after arrival and he had not seen me either. I received my instructions and a bouquet provided by the chapel and when I heard the Wedding March (Here Comes the Bride) to start my bride glide out the door and to the altar. We did have one rehearsal the day before. I saw Husband standing at the altar smiling at me as I tried to do a feminine stroll to the altar. I joined him and smiled and he whispered to me that I looked beautiful.
The minister was perfect and did everything just right. He referred to me as a woman and used my name of Julie such as; “We are gathered here today to unite this man, Val, and this woman, Julie, in holy matrimony and wedlock,” and then as it went on, “Do you Val take this woman Julie to be your lawfully wedded wife to love, protect and cherish,” and then when it was my turn, “Do you Julie accept this man Val to be your lawfully wedded husband to love, honor and obey.” Then at the end, “I now pronounce you as husband and wife and Mr. and Mrs. Val and Julie Ferris.” This was what I wanted and the way it was explained to me when I booked the wedding that the legal part had to be same sex and that was why my real legal male name had to be used on the application and license and if we would have had a civil service at the courthouse the judge would considered me a male also. But at a separate outside wedding we could do it any way we wanted. The wedding chapel also provided us with a fancy Certificate of Marriage that I framed and now have on the living room wall that has me as a woman and bride and listed as Julie. When Husband and I kissed I put my arms up around his neck and he put his arms around me. I had wanted him to put his hands on my butt and pull me up close to him as we kissed and he did. Being a submissive wife I wanted this to show everyone that I belonged to him. We had a lingering passionate French kiss for a few moments. Even with me wearing 4 inch heels Husband was still slightly taller than me. But that is the way it should be, a husband taller and bigger than his wife. I am at my lightest and most slender now than I have been all my adult life. I weigh around 125 to 130 now. I want to be like a woman and have been on a diet that promotes estrogen and the only exercises I do are to target my butt to keep it firm and built up and I also do some women’s pushups to help the pectoral muscles behind my boobs to keep my female breasts pert, firm and from sagging.
Our package at the chapel was good for about up to 30 guests. We did not have that many but they also provided us with a room for a reception. There was inexpensive champagne (sparkling white wine) or apple cider for those that do not drink alcohol. I had the cider because I do not drink alcohol but Husband had some champagne. There was a small 2 tier wedding cake that someone had brought for us that had the little bride and groom figures on top of it. I got a warm feeling because the little bride figure represented me, I was the woman. I pulled my dress up my leg and Husband removed my stretchy garter from my thigh and flipped it to the men and I turned my back to the girls and tossed my bouquet over my shoulder for them to catch.
During the reception Husband had something for me other than just the ring and pulled a little silver box from his pocket and opened it. It was a silver necklace that was just a simple lightweight chain and the hanging pendant part was the word ‘Wife’ in cursive letters and it is about 1 inch long and about ¾ inch high. Being it is in cursive the letters all connect together. He put it around my neck and attached it for me in front of the guests and pointed at a mirror and told me to go look. I had not seen what it was yet but did as I was instructed. I was surprised and delighted when I saw what it was. Husband knew how strongly I felt about being a wife and know with this necklace he labeled me as a wife and as his wife. I wear this necklace everyday now but usually take it off before bed because we get pretty frisky at times in bed during sex and I do not want to break the chain. He does ask me to keep it on sometimes because if he is going to fuck me in the missionary position and is above me he likes looking down and seeing it on me as he is thrusting his dick up into me. Sometimes when he sees it, it makes him cum instantly in me. We did our first dance but did it differently. Instead of the traditional face to face slow dance and waltz I turned my back to Husband and he put his arms around and I put my hands on his forearms and we grinded together, my butt pushed against his groin. We moved together as one to the music. Even though we were clothed I could feel him starting to get hard as he was pressed between my butt cheeks.
We rode back to the motel in the limo and some of the guests brought Husband’s car back. We rode from Reno to Vegas in his car and would return home that way. But we would return as newlyweds. On the way back in back of the limo Husband kept calling me Mrs. Ferris. We were both horny and wanted to get to the room so we could fuck. I never felt more like a woman before and wanted my husband to fuck me and cum inside me.
This wedding was much like my first wedding years ago and that was what I wanted. It was perfect!
We were both excited and euphoric because we were now legally married and husband and wife. I was now a legally married woman, what I had wanted for years, and a man’s wife and had a husband, and it was all legal!! I was now a legally married woman! Plus we are now deeply in love with each other and I really want to be his wife. Our sex that night was wonderful and meaningful because we were a newlywed husband and wife and the first time we did it that night was us consummating our marriage. I got ready for bed almost immediately after getting in the room. I went into the bathroom to remove my tampon and take a quick rinse out douche. I took off my dress, wedding accessories, bra and panty and left on the rest but pulled on a new white baby doll over the top. My boobs, pussy and butt were bare but they could be seen through the transparent material of the baby doll. Husband wanted me to be that way for our first lovemaking session of consummating our marriage.
We made love with passion that night. Our first time that night we did it in the missionary position with me on my back and my ankles on Husband’s shoulders as he was over the top of me and buried to the hilt up inside me. He put all his weight on me as he leaned down to kiss me while he was fucking me and had me bent to where my knees were almost touching my boobs, which forced my bottom pushed up against his groin and gave him the maximum and deepest penetration. It was like I was impaled on his dick. He fucked me good and hard until he cum and shot his sperm filled semen deep inside me.
Before our first fuck after I exited the bathroom before we started our lovemaking we smoked some weed and got stoned. Marijuana is a natural aphrodisiac for me and gets me very horny as a woman and all I can think about is getting fucked. It also enhances the sensations of being fucked. As we finished the joint we lay on the bed and just like a hetero couple we started our foreplay of passionately kissing. Husband likes feeling up my butt and pushing me onto my back and putting his hand between my legs but going all the way to my woman hole (butt hole) inserting his middle finger and finger fucking me just as a man does it to a woman. He does this as he passionately kisses men and also when sucking on my tits. This gets me very hot and he can make me cum on his finger as he works over my G spot (prostrate). Usually during each foreplay, I will also suck his dick to get him hard. That first time that night he lay on top of me for a little while still inside me after he had cum and we kissed because we had just consummated our marriage. After he softened and his dick slipped from my hole we rested with him on his back and me curled up beside him with my head on his chest and his arm around me. We did fuck twice more that night in different positions. My hole was loose from all the fucking and I awoke sleeping in a wet spot under my butt. Just like many women do, I sleep in a wet spot frequently from being fucked and that was now common for me. When we dated we fucked every time he took me out and since he has moved in the 1st of September and all the way to now he has fucked me every night. But also to add to that he sometimes wants a morning piece of ass and would fuck me in the mornings before we get out of bed and there are other times that he will do me like during the day or right when he comes home from work. From the start I decided that I was going to be a good wife and woman for him and let my husband fuck me whenever he wanted. I felt it is my duty as a wife. I do my Kegels several times a day to keep my pussy tight for my husband. I will continue to let him screw me whenever he wants as long as it doesn’t cause me any problems. Husband has a nice dick and is moderately hung about 7 inches and his thickness is in proportion to his length. I have heard and read that unless a dick is really big that one can take a dick up their ass daily. I did in my first marriage and was fucked at least once and sometimes more than that every day. I have talked to men that served time in max prisons that were forcefully fucked in the ass daily.
I have very few bowel movements now because I douche regularly and keep all the yucky stuff pretty much washed out of me. Husband likes seeing my douche bag hanging on the wall up beside the toilet and it hangs there all the time. He likes all things I do feminine that makes me like a woman.
So now I have been living totally as a woman for about a year and enjoying it. It feels so right and marriage and being a wife feels so right. I use my female voice all the time now and Husband tells me that I am very much like a real woman. As I call him ‘Husband’, he now much of the time calls me ‘wife’ and sometimes ‘woman’.
Right before starting my final womanhood I took some test that is called a ‘Sissy Quiz’. It is for TG and TS to see how far into womanhood I am and I scored way high into it and the result was I was well passed the point of no return and into full blown womanhood. While wearing a prosthetic cunt glued to me Husband has said I look more like a woman than I do a man. I also have female breasts and my butt is like a woman’s. I am the most slender now than I have been in years. Of course the estrogen has helped shape and mold the new me. I wear only clothes made for a woman to wear now and do not have any male clothing at all. We are thinking about a boob job for me now because my growth has seemed to slow down and maybe has stopped. If I do get breast augmentation I will go for a D cup. I have not used my penis and testicles for years and never will again. I do want my own ‘beaver’ down below and a gap at the juncture of my thighs so that I look like a woman without having to wear a prosthetic. It is a bit late in life to have a vagina cut into me but I have been thinking of finding a doctor that will castrate me and cut off my penis and try to sew me back up so that it looks like I have a slit down there. Hopefully with my pubic hair will cover any scarring and make it look like I’m a real and natural woman. Without testicles I might be able to eliminate the Spirno, the testosterone blocker from having to use.
Anyway now I am a happily and legally married woman.
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Halloween night
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Posted:Nov 2, 2015 6:33 pm
Last Updated:Nov 10, 2015 7:30 am 86723 Views
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For Halloween I dressed as Elvira, Mistress of the Dark, but did do a variation and did not wear pantyhose or tights but instead wore a black corset with garters and back seamed fishnet stockings underneath my long dress. The reason for the variation was because I wanted to have exposed through the long slit on the side of my dress that runs from my upper thigh to my feet, my stocking clad leg and the garter clip attached to my stocking welt (the darker thicker part at the top of the stocking). The corset I wore was tight and cinched my waist to give me an hourglass shape but used hip pads to widen my hips to enhance my shape.
Also under my dress I wore a black butt boosting panty that is made of elastane and spandex that is designed to lift and separate the buttocks to give the wearer a sexier, shapelier and more womanly and feminine bottom. I have written about these before in previous posts. The panty is like a full cut woman’s panty (granny panty) or a no leg panty girdle.
For my cleavage it was smaller than I have had in the past because now I am using my own B cup boobs and a black padded push-up bra instead of my D cup ‘Real Breasts’ realistic lifelike breast forms that I used before. Of course I had my makeup and black wig on with my nails done.
I tried to act like Elvira and did my best imitation of her and everyone thought I did it very well. I act like a woman anyway since estrogen has taken me over physically and mentally and has me thinking like a woman.
Husband (soon to be my legal husband in just a few days) dressed as Dracula. Husband had to put on white makeup on his face because he has an olive complexion and is partially of Greek descent. Being half Greek may be the reason he likes to butt fuck so much, I know he sure likes doing it to me! But of course I am the woman in our relationship and the one that gets fucked even though it is up my ass.
We were invited to a costume party at a home and went there. It was mainly gay people and some other Tgirls that were dressed in costumes and there was one other Elvira there but plenty of zombies, vampires, monsters and even some pimps and whores. From there we went to a nightclub and danced for a bit (dirty dance where I grind my butt against his groin and he grinds back against me). I could feel Husband getting excited as we danced, even though we were both clothed I could feel his erection snugly pressed up between my buttocks as we pushed and grinded against each other. We were both horny so we went home to screw.
Husband wanted me to remain as Elvira while we had sex so I just took off my dress and my panty and we smoked some weed and had sex. Me, being Elvira that night got him very excited and he did it to me twice.
I slept as Elvira that night.
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Halloween again
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Posted:Oct 27, 2015 2:27 am
Last Updated:Jun 29, 2016 12:34 pm 86390 Views
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Its time that I decide what scary female character I want to be this year. Mostly I have been Elvira, Mistress of the Dark and have a costume that I have been wearing on Halloween nights in the past. Once I was Peggy Bundy from Married With and once I tried to make myself look like Sarah Palin when I wanted to be a scary woman and I went to a nightclub dressed as Sarah and I found out how many guys wanted to fuck Sarah Palin in the ass.
Michelle Bachmann looks too average even though she is a scary woman but would be hard to distinguish who I was trying to portray. Anne Coulter does kind of resemble an older drag queen without makeup.
Two recent scary women are Kim Davis and Carly Fiorina. I can't put on enough weight in this amount of time to be a sow like Kim Davis and Carly is a pretty scary woman from what I have seen. I have listened to her speak several times because I believe in giving everyone a fair chance and she is not someone that I would want for president. This woman is looney tunes with a vivid imagination and I would hate to see her with the launch codes for the nuclear ICBMs. She is another one that looks like an older drag queen that makeup cannot help.
So I guess I will just be Elvira again because I have the outfit, wig and makeup and husband likes me dressed like that. I did dress Peggy Bundy for husband and he likes me like that too.
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Julie's Boobs #11.
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Posted:Oct 15, 2015 2:28 am
Last Updated:Oct 18, 2015 12:16 am 90768 Views
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I may be in another growing spurt. I have soreness and tenderness in my boobs and that usually happens when I am having a growing spurt.
Val, who I will start calling ‘husband’ or sometimes ‘my husband’ from now on in these posts, because we are already living as husband and wife and we will soon be legally married any way, and that event is just weeks away but he has been very encouraging concerning my breasts. He has been massaging them for me using the Chinese breast massage technique and the hormonal breast cream to help them grow. And yes, I do get pleasure from him massaging the Breast Booster Cream into them. I have asked him to be a little careful when massaging my boobs right now because of them being a bit sore and tender.
I do call him ‘husband’ now and sometimes ‘my husband’ because we are just like a married couple, a married man and woman and husband and wife. Of course I am the woman. Examples are when we awaken in the morning I might say, “Good morning husband,” or when he leaves for work, “Have a good day husband.” He in turn calls me ‘wife’ or ‘woman’. Either one is fine but I think I do prefer ‘wife’, it kind of reminds me of what I am but I also like ‘woman’ occasionally.
The only thing different after we are married and after the wedding is that we will be legally married and I will be a legally married woman with a wedding ring on my finger. Being that we are already living together as husband and wife nothing else at all will change.
My boobs have added so much more to my femininity and womanhood. I have been living totally as a woman fulltime since the end of December and have not worn any male clothing since then either. Other than my male genitals I am totally a woman now. I have experienced what it feels like to a woman to have her breasts sucked, kissed, licked and fondled by a man but husband is the only man that has sucked my tits. The only other man to feel my boobs other than husband was that rude man in the supermarket that groped my breasts as he started to squeeze by me. He took a few seconds as he felt me up and I was not wearing a bra that day and the only thing between the flesh of my boobs and his hand was the thin material of a woman’s T-shirt. He felt me up a little bit as I stood there frozen and not knowing what to do as he fondled my boobs. I did write about this in an earlier post.
Also as I have mentioned is that I only have women’s clothes now. Except for 2 men’s T-shirts that I saved for things like yard work and painting, etc., I only have clothes actually made for a woman to wear. I even got rid of all my TG clothing because that is made a man to wear to appear as a woman. It makes me feel more feminine and womanly if I wear clothes that are made for a woman to wear.
My equipment that I ordered to increase my breast and nipple sizes and to start lactation and get milk in my boobs has arrived and I started using them a few days ago. First I used the suction cups to increase the growth in my breasts and with my boobs sucked into them by using the hand device and the swelling from the suction holds them attached on me and I can walk around with it on while I do other things. The clear plastic cups can be hooked together and there are elastic straps that can hold the whole device on me like a bra and make it hands free while using it. The makers recommend that the user start with wearing it 15 minutes a day and gradually work up to one hour. I will be walking around with my boobs sucked into the plastic domes while they are expanding. I have been using it for recommended 15 minutes a day and will work up to using it for an hour a day. Then after that I use the nipple cups, which works on the same principal but make my nipples and areolas larger. Then there is the one I call the milking machine. After I start lactation I will use it to milk me. I want to lactate and have milk in my breasts, that would be so ultra feminine and like a woman. So far I am getting a little colostrum which comes before the milk flow starts and I hope soon in a few days I will be getting milk. The colostrum is heavy like cream and has a yellowish color to it. So that does mean my mammaries are starting to work if they are producing colostrum then they should start producing milk. There is this ugly bra I have to wear that has holes at the nipples to hold the nipple sucking cups attached to my nipples, and from that outside the bra has a small baby bottle hanging on each side that the milk is routed into and has clear plastic tubes that go to the electronic vacuum suction unit. That part is battery operated or AC power supply and the model I purchased can be plugged into an electrical outlet and used while sitting at a table or the power unit can be clipped onto a belt or waistband while on battery power so that I can walk around hands free while being milked. The cups suck the nipples deep into them and it does have a calming effect while being milked. It is like a natural nursing suction, the same as if I had a baby nursing from me. I am excited and looking forward to having milk in my breasts and having to be milked every day. Having milk in my boobs will also make them appear bigger when they full. Husband has offered to help with my milk and will suck milk from my breasts. Other Tgirls have done this and I have been corresponding with another Tgirl that is already doing that and she is getting milk and lactating. Now, we have to figure out what to do with the milk that I produce while using the milking machine. As husband said he will drink his wife’s milk (me) and I have given thought of drinking some of my own milk. I love the thought of being milked. I have been thinking of advertizing as a wet nurse and nursing people’s babies and providing breast milk for them to use when I’m not available. I can milk myself and bottle it for them. Just the thought of walking around as a woman with milk in my breasts really makes me feel warm and feminine and very girly inside. The thought of the title of ‘Professional Wet Nurse’ really gives me feminine and womanly feelings. Maybe I can make enough money to pay for my equipment doing this. I have had fantasies of husband having a cold glass of my breast milk with his meals. Or having some over his cereal or oatmeal and also he can take some to work with him to have with his lunch. I can put it in a container other than a baby bottle and put it on ice in a small ice chest or pouch to take to work and he can open it and drink his wife’s breast milk with his meal. Nobody has to know what it is he’s drinking. He can just say it is whole milk that he cannot get there at work. I will have to use the milker everyday and maybe 2 or 3 times a day and husband will see me using it. The breast and nipple enlargement devices I will usually use during the week days when husband is at work but he has expressed that he does want to see me using them in front of him on occasion. I can hardly wait for husband to start sucking milk from my breasts. I do look forward to feeling the pressure in my breasts as they fill with milk. Has anybody seen the recent movie, Mad Max Fury Road where obese women were hooked up to milking machines and being milked? This was the main food supply for the elite in the city. There was a row of them sitting being milked. It appeared as if that was their job and function.
When we get married I do want to have milk in boobs. If they get to full and start leaking leaving a wet spot on my wedding dress in front of my boobs, all I can say is, oh well. I also plan on inserting a tampon before the wedding to make me feel that much more feminine and like a woman. Of course I will take it out before husband penetrates me and we consummate. I want the first time he fucks me after we are legally married to be very special.
To some this may seem to be a bit far out but it is all possible and anything that is possible can happen. I have discussed all this with husband and I have noticed the bulge in his pants being made by his hard-on when I do talk about things like this. Sometimes he will take me into the bedroom to fuck me if he gets to excited. I seem to always get horny too when he does. I have thought about the fact that I am his wife and a good wife gets fucked by her husband when he wants her and those thoughts do arouse me. I get horny as a woman and want to be fucked. And I am always fucked in the ass because that is the way a woman like me has to fuck. I like to say that I fuck like a woman.
It has been since the first of September when husband moved in with me. So far he has fucked me every single night since we have been living together and he fucks me in the ass each time. He has also fucked me numerous other times other than just at night when we go to bed. On his days off and when he does not have to get up and get ready for work he will want a piece of ass in the mornings. He has followed me into the shower a few times and he has got behind me and pinned me face first to the shower wall and slammed it to me. There was one day that I followed him into the shower and brought the Vaseline, which is what we use in the shower, and he looked down at me and said, “Wifey must be a horny girl,” and I looked back up at him and smiled and said, “Yes your wife is a horny girl.”
I think that the estrogen diet has also increased my sexual desires as a woman and we smoke pot before going to bed and marijuana is a good promoter of estrogen and pot just makes me horny. I eat a diet of things that promote estrogen; soy bean products and tofu which is made from soy and also drink soy milk, eat noodles made from soy beans. Legumes are good for promoting estrogen and so are many fruits and vegetables. Additives I use with my diet are fenugreek, fennel seeds, red clover and wild yam. These can be added to food or the fenugreek and fennel seeds can be made into a tea. My Breast Booster Cream has Oestrogens, a form of estrogen, in it along with other feminizing agents and things to make it absorb through the skin. I take estrogen capsules also; one is an overall that helps with boobs, butt, skin and other body parts, and also a capsule that helps with breast development. Then there is the progesterone (another female hormone) suppository that I stick up my ass and take rectally. I call all that plus my weed, my ‘boob food’! This regimen also has affected me mentally and emotionally making me more like a woman.
Husband says that I am totally like a real woman and GG and he treats me as one. I dress as a woman every day and most days wear a garter belt and hose under my dress and heels on my feet and also I apply and wear makeup every day. I have been doing exercises that target my butt to keep it like a woman’s butt. All my adult life I have been told that I have a woman’s butt and a sexy cute female ass. I go to my beautician to have my hair done and she also takes care of my nails. I do everything as a woman now and I feel like a woman and I am happy and it feels so natural and right.
We already have our wedding rings and I have my wedding dress. Husband has not seen my dress yet and like in tradition will not see it until our wedding with me in it. It is a long sleeve satin and lace cocktail dress that zips up the back. I also have all new underthings to wear underneath it. A white satin corset waist cincher with garters to hold up my suntan (light brown) back seamed stockings, a white pushup bra to enhance my cleavage and a white spandex butt shaper panty with a satin tummy panel that is like a full cut women’s brief and similar to a no leg panty girdle. I normally wear 3 inch heels but for my wedding I will wear a pair of silver ankle strap sandals with four inch heels. I have a pair of white satin fingerless gloves to wear on my hands and my nails will be the same shade of red as my lipstick. I have a veil to wear over my head.
We have our room reserved at a gay owned motel that has a swimming pool to spend our honeymoon at for a few days and I can wear one of my women’s one piece swimsuits at the pool. We will be going to some of the local gay and TG friendly nightclubs and bars in Las Vegas. Then we will go back home to Reno and live our life. I will be a complete and total housewife.
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And now the Pope?
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Posted:Sep 30, 2015 2:32 pm
Last Updated:Oct 18, 2015 12:16 am 105442 Views
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Kim Davis and her attorney are claiming she had a visit with the Pope while he was here. I have read what articles I can find on this so far and there is no real proof of that, that I can find. That Vatican has not confirmed or commented on any such visit as of yet as far as I have seen. The whole story is outlandish and to me appears to be as big of a total hoax and farse as her. If this was real why was this not in the news before? I mean the Pope's every moment and occupied time was being followed and he was constantly being protected by Secret Service. So I find it amazing that out of all the people that wanted to see the Pope why did she get a visit, if she really did.
Her and people like her, these other so called honest and truthful christians are the reason I became an agnostic. And If I ever totally lose my faith and become and atheist it will be because of the bull shit that people like her put out.
As a gay and transgender (gay because I am a genetic male that has sex with men and transgender because I desire to be the opposite sex of my birth) and about to be legally married and live as a woman and a wife, I do not like Kim Davis or people like her. We are not trying to tell her how to live her life but she claims her constitutional rights are being violated and is twisting that to suit herself while at the same time she is violating the lawful rights of others. She is very much against people like me and also all of us that are on this website.
She cannot stop or prevent gays, lesbians, bi or TG from living together as couples or from having sex together. All she is asked to do is go by the laws we have. It is not in her job description to tell the rest of us how to live. She took an oath of office that she ran for and won so now to her, do the job you were elected to do!
She kinds of reminds me of Sarah Palin who was given some notoriety and decided to run with it and become a general pain in the ass. So now is this honest upstanding christian and woman of values going to result to lying.
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Julie's Boobs: 10
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Posted:Sep 28, 2015 12:35 am
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2015 12:51 am 99836 Views
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My now live-in boyfriend and future husband Val is helping with my breast development. I am on a diet of estrogen, or a diet that promotes my estrogen and other female hormones such as progesterone and also taking supplements and we are both smoking marijuana especially before having sex because of the enhancements. I call my diet and regimen ‘boob food’, because it aids in helping my breasts grow.
I am not sure what marijuana does for progesterone the second most major female hormone but it does promote higher estrogen levels in the body that contribute to breast development and feminization. Weed also acts as a natural aphrodisiac for me as a woman making me desire having sex as a woman. Other words, it makes me want to get fucked in the ass and that is all I can think about when stoned. With my future husband Val it does the opposite and makes him hard and wants to get his dick up a hot tight hole. I am happy to provide the hole for him (smile).
Both Val and I want me to have bigger boobs. I have a B cup now about to go into a C cup soon if they keep growing. It seems like they have been a B for awhile now. I am on HRT and taking the hormonal supplements for breast development to make them grow. I have read negative and positive concerning progesterone helping with breast growth and am now giving it a try. I found a distributor that sells anal suppositories of progesterone and I am using them in the mornings, so yes I am sticking a female hormone up my ass. I read that a hormone like that has a better chance of absorption and is more effective if taken rectally than rather than orally. Of course injected with a syringe is actually the best. I was thinking of doing that and have Val give me a shot in my butt cheek. Sometimes he does push my suppository through my anus with his finger. But I do have to be careful and may want to have more frequent breast exams and mammograms because of a higher risk of a women’s disease, breast cancer, which progesterone can possibly cause.
I am starting to get used to having boobs now but the fascination for them is also still there. I think to myself, “These are real boobs, real female breasts, woman’s tits, and they are mine and natural and they are growing and getting bigger.” In the mornings when I wake up the first place my hands go are to my boobs to make sure they are still there and really there and it is not just a dream. I sit up on the edge of the bed with my feet over the side and stick my chest out as I stretch and my boobs are rising up with the motion and sticking out as my baby doll nightie hangs over them. They are still firm just as if they were boobs on a teenage girl or young woman. I am so proud of them but I still want them to grow bigger. They have added so much more to my femininity and womanliness. I almost can’t imagine what life was like before I had boobs and I am now a senior mature woman and have had my boobs less than a year.
I don’t mind the mammograms even though they can be uncomfortable because I want to do all the things that a GG does rather they are uncomfortable or not just to make me feel and be more like a feminine woman. Even my rectal exams I consider to be like a female gynecology pelvic exam because they are given to me pretty much the same way, me on my back on a padded exam table with my legs up and supported by a brace behind my knees or my feet in stirrups and my hole opened up with a speculum. My doctor knows that I submit to anal intercourse but disapproves of it and he does give me manual breast exams also. He says that I am one of a kind for him because he is a GP that does family medicine and has not ever had or does not have any other TG patients. At first he almost turned me away when I came out as being transgendered. He kept me as a patient because he has been my doctor for about 20 years before that. He just treats me as a woman now when I go in and I dress as woman when I go there. They announce for me as Julie now in the waiting room when it is my turn. The receptionist knows who I am and I just tell her that I’m there for my appointment. There is always a nurse present with the doctor during my exams just like with any female patient. Sometimes he talks to me like I’m a real woman and GG. He seems to be loosening up as far as his thoughts on transgendered.
Now Val wants to help with my breast development and I told him that breast massage was very important to natural development and just as important as the diet and supplements. I have been doing it myself but now he helps and massages them for me as I lay back flat on the bed with my arms flat on the bed and my hands beside my head and he massages them for me using the hormonal based breast cream I use to help develop them. The cream contains all the hormones and things in it and I use a Chinese breast massage technique and have shown him how to do it. It feels good to me physically and mentally both as he kind of firmly kneads my boobs.
He knows how important my boobs are to me he is totally in favor of me doing everything to be more like a woman. When he learned I used tampons and why I used them he was all in favor of it. He asked me to show him and I pulled down my panty and held my dress up as I turned my back to him so he could see the little white tampon string hanging down from between my smooth butt cheeks.
He likes me douching not just because it is another feminine thing to do but it also keeps our fucking cleaner and not messy or smelly. He likes the fact that I sometimes also use a women’s douche powder to make a douche solution to clean out my ‘vagina’.
No matter how far out or crazy it is, he is all for it as long as it makes me more like a real woman and GG. He likes the fact that I only wear clothes made for a woman to wear and that is all I have now. I wear women’s clothing, which is all I have now or I wear nothing at all. I have fully accepted the fact that I am totally a woman now. The only thing is that I still have my male genitals but they have greatly shrunk. I just wish I would have gone through with SRS aka GRS when I had the chances. If I would have I would now have a cunt with a labia and a vaginal canal where my groin is. Many times I try to imagine what it would be like to have a real vagina.
Many people reading what I write might think that I am a strange unnatural creature of some sort but it has happened all my life of things that made me feminine and like I was supposed to be a female of the human species. There were just too many things while I was growing up that pointed toward me being a feminine girl, even though sometimes I did try to deny it.
I have ordered and am awaiting some equipment that may help with my breast development. One is a suction/vacuum device that sucks the boobs into a large plastic cup and holds them there swollen inside the cups. It pulls more blood into them making them expand more and after wearing it for awhile and then removing it, the boobs will slowly shrink back but remain a bit larger than they were before. It is said that everyday use of this can increase breast size as each day it makes them a little bigger. There are straps that come with it so that it can be hands free and worn like a bra around the house while doing other things. Then another device is 2 nipple cups that fit over the nipples and sucks the nipples into it and holds in place. This is to enlargen the nipples and areolas. The third device is what could be considered a milking machine that will start lactation in my breasts and will milk me. This can also be a hands free device and I can walk around with it on and I will be being milked while I am doing other things. It does have a bra that comes with it that holds the suction cups attached to the breasts but it is kind of a weird ugly bra and not something I would normally wear but it is supposed to do the job. The electronic pump that causes the suction is battery or AC operated and can be clipped to a waist band or clothing so the unit can be worn and used while I’m doing other things around the house. Just the thought of having milk in my breasts does give me a warm fuzzy feminine feeling. Plus having milk in them will also make my boobs bigger. This unit is expensive and costs me over $400. The breast enlargement suction cups cost about $45 and the nipple enlargement device cost me about 30 something.
Now that same sex marriage is legal there are gay couples adopting . I have thought about having a baby myself because being a mom has been a desire of mine. Not giving birth myself, but I would love that if I could but instead adopting a new born infant and becoming its mom. The baby would grow up thinking of me as its mother I and would be nursing it from my breasts. I think I would make a great mom and I have strong maternal instincts. Even if I could not get pregnant and give birth myself I would still love being a mom and nurturing a baby. Starting lactation to have milk in my boobs would be a must to do to be a proper mom. The would never know that I was not a genetic and real woman. But I have also thought that this late in life for me at my age would not be fair to a to have such an old mother. So now I have pretty much decided against that and will just always imagine and fantasize about being a mother and mom.
My first marriage to Tom which was just a fantasy marriage and not legal, as much as we wanted it to be, I was a stepmother to Tom’s 2 young daughters and they thought I was a real woman. I loved it when they called me mom and mommy and got a warm feeling from it. I treated them just like I had given birth to them myself.
I may explore the opportunities to be a wet nurse and hire out to breast feed other peoples babies and also be milked and supply them with breast milk for when I can’t be there.
Val has been living with me for 4 weeks now and we are just like husband and wife. He has screwed me every night and a few more times since he has been living here. Sometimes he wants a morning piece of ass before he gets out of bed especially on his days off. I give it to him if he does. He likes me to suck his dick also and I do and there are mornings that I suck him to completion and swallow his load before he goes to work. I am the woman and female totally in our relationship. He finally proposed marriage to me and I gladly accepted. We are thinking of late October or the first week of November and in Las Vegas like we already planned. We will have a honeymoon there also and when we were discussing that I smiled and joked with him that I better have a sore little butt hole when we get back home from the honeymoon. He smiled back at me and said he would do his damndest to make sure I had to sit funny on the way back home.
I will be the best wife I can be. After we are married Val will wear the pants in the family and I will wear the panties.
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She should be fired!
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Posted:Sep 5, 2015 12:18 pm
Last Updated:Sep 8, 2015 5:23 am 99920 Views
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Kim Davis, that fat ugly female clerk in Kentucky who refuses to issue marriage licenses to gays and lesbians should be terminated from her position. The reason, dereliction of duty and refusing to go by the law and using her power to assert her own will. Right now she sets in jail until she agrees to do her job but she refuses and chooses to remain in jail. I say don't jail her just terminate her and problem solved. Her 5 deputy clerks have been ordered by a judge to follow the law and said they would even if it did interfere with her religious beliefs.
This is someone who is forcing their will on others. She does not have the right to dictate law but to follow the law. She obviously has been given too much power and is abusing it.
This woman has been married 4 times and maybe that is why she can't keep a husband. She claims to be a born again christian. One thing I read is that her church instructed her to follow God's law and ignore the laws made by the Supreme Court. Well the way I see it is that the church does not sign her paycheck, the tax payers do!
Now her attorney says that any marriage applications not signed or approved by her are void. Just fire the fat ugly bitch and let her go back to her church. If she is refusing to perform her job description then why can't they just fire her? She was not given her position to make her own laws. She should not get her way on this matter, if she does then what will she do next.
In the near future I am going to participate in a same sex marriage myself and be legally married to my future husband. Even though for legal purposes it will be a 'same sex', to us it will be a marriage between a man and a woman, me being the woman and wife of course. I would hate to have someone like Kim Davis deciding my happiness. Just who does she think she is!
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